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Hello guys, long time since I updated my deviant, from works to news and journals.

Now going directly to the point of this journal in matter, I am going to try to clarify some of the reasons for the above recently mentioned and I am going to be as honest as possible. During the last 2 or 3 years I have been growing economically, and raising positions in big companies as a front end developer and web designer, and had to travel long distances to reach the office in a very uncomfortable crowded subway which left me with very little time for studying and painting. At the begging it felt great, it was good, I was ok with it, but eventually things turned up to be like anything I have ever expected. I started to feel more and more sick every month; 3 bronchitis, flu, Pharyngitis and pneumonia were some of the diseases I had all in just about 6 months.
Recently I assumed a great position in my new company and the situation went from bad to worse, as if my body was actually begging me to stop doing something, I started to faint and feel sick reaching the point of having a stroke risk which implied that I may die If I continue like this. At this point I had to drop art and university(which was everything I loved in this life) and just concentrate on my job, simply because my mind was burned out from all the things I was doing. I was hospitalized several times, run through several tests, and they found nothing, anything at all. Stress was their explanation. Just stress...

So...I started to question my life in many aspects like money, happiness, love, work, art... and figured out after many days of thinking that this situation was not what I wanted. I started to ask many people how they face these situations, or if they even experienced them at all. Well... as a result of my kind of desperate survey for intelligent answers, every single person I talked to about this said: "yes...but you just have to deal with it"

It was the most depressing thing I have ever heard, people live their lives hating their jobs, feeling sick because of it, loosing target on their dreams and achievements in life (if they actually have some) at the cost of buying things things they don't really need, to impress people they don't really know, to feel happy about it. But every one knows money doesn't buy happiness, it sure gives the illusion, but it really doesn't.

So why bothering doing all this...

There were friends that supported me and endless messages from a couple of popular videos like this one from Alan Watts: www.youtube.com/watch?v=rApGnn…
that told me to "just do what you want", and this was kind of new to me. It was strange. It was scary. Aren't we supposed to all do the same thing?, aren't we supposed to go to an office stare at our screen for 9 hours straight and return back home to sleep and do the same the day after?, Wasn't this what everyone teach us in school?, that we have to live like that for the rest of our lives...?

Well, I fortunately made my choice, and I choose to live doing what I love to doing. Which is art.
And I refuse to follow the same path everyone is following just to get a couple more bucks on their pockets.
I don't know how much time I could live from art, but its worth trying, it definitely is.

I know I should keep this journal with professionalism and giving you super awesome news, but I guessed you guys should know this, that I'm just a human being like everyone else. Perhaps some of you experienced or are going through the same situation, and you find some answers on this journal. I will love to hear your story if so...

Thank you for reading

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DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I got to your profile seeing your art, and came across this journal of yours.
I have to say; I respected you for the amazing art you made already. But what I even came to respect more is your attitude. That even despite the hard times you've been through, you came here to share this with people. That you make choices in life because what you love, and not because the path others set for you.

I've been through a similar situation a few years back. I was also chasing a career in the web industry and fell terribly ill to the point even the doctors gave up on me, only to get to the conclusion that there's more in life than just money. Nowadays I still work in the web industry (I've always liked the web to start with) but I'm not working 60+ hours a week anymore, as my body just couldn't handle the pressure. And despite many people telling me that I wasted my chances for a great career, I'm more happy with my life now than I was back then. My grandma used to say that when one door closes in life, another one opens, and I think that's kinda true. That even despite that some things don't work out in life, that there are plenty of other possibility's, and that you should never be satisfied being deeply unhappy because you're too afraid to chase your dreams.
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FacundoDiaz Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for your comment it kinda warmed my heart a little bit :glomp:.
Its great to know that there are people like you who understant these kind of situations and that they are also trying to pursue their dreams in life.

Oh and I love your pencil works so I am watching you now :P
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BlackDonner Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I hope you feel better, man. I've been in your position. It resulted in a skyrocketing blood pressure, skin leisures and panic attacks. Never more!!!
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juanpmassa Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2013  Professional General Artist
Qué haces tanto tiempo? recién renové la cuenta de DA después de bastante de no actualizar y eso (las razones por las que cambie la cuenta en otro momento te la digo). Te agrego en el watch y me entero de esto, espero que te encuentres mejor de salud.

A mi me paso algo parecido, pero nunca llegue a este extremo de stress. Me tiré a la pileta justo a tiempo, fui por lo que quería en realidad y tuve la suerte que no me juzgaron por eso (viste que a veces a la familia de uno le cuesta entender y eso a uno le jode) hoy por hoy no me va mal como historietista.

Hiciste bien, a veces cuesta al principio pero te vas a sentir bien con vos mismo... Abrazo :D
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EvaxisAwesome Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2013
 wat program does he use to make these?
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Brehnman Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Well, dealing with it is what most of us do. If u have a possibility not having to deal with it, consider yourself privileged. ;)
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RoboticGolem Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I know I'm a bit late to the party (I'm not on much) but...

You have to do what you enjoy.  That's the end of it.  If your lucky, you love that kind of life where you just stare at a screen for 9-10 hours a day.  I currently pull two positions at my job (which I enjoy because I've got somethings that are completely different from day to day, no monotony).  However, issues have arisen where I dont want to be there anymore.  I've started my own business doing what I love.  I'm really quite good at it.  I'm stuck under a failing housing market, so I've got no where to go.  I'm hoping that I'll slowly be able to ween off of my day job to just my own business and support my life as it is.  I dont need or want a ton of money.  I picked up a major client via word of mouth a couple of months ago.  Even though the requirement and workload are a little high.  I love it.  It's what I enjoy doing.  It reminded me more than anything why I dont care for the job I have now.

Remember, if you work yourself to death, what else is there?
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8-0-8 Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2013
Good luck in your pursuit; perhaps someday you may be able to make a living solely off of what you love.
A lot of life is about just going through the motions and dealing with it, as others have told you. It is depressing, in a way - a bit strange too, that so many accept it with face value.
Heard from someone that there's a life of meaning and a life of happiness, but you can't have both. However, you certainly *can* have a life without either.
I'm glad you've made a good choice ^_^
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Avolendi Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist

Money is a means to an end and I think that's often forgotten.

 

Beyond the basic needs, it's more important that you focus on enjoying your life. Else you spend all your time working towards something you want, rather than actually spending your time doing what you like. If you can find what you like to do in life, it's more important you try to make that work rather than to do what pays well and you don't like. And if you can't do what you like or can't earn enough money with it, it's at least worth it to try and find something that allows you to keep at it or focus on it further down the road.

 

This is something I realized for myself a while ago as well and I'm now working to finish a study so I can hopefully earn a living doing what I like.

 

Good luck in pursuing your goals :)

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Milvolarsum Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
That´s how you do it man :D
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aRT2MS Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013  Hobbyist
Its sad, but not everyone can just stop quit and live the dream! I like my job, fortunately, though I wish I had more time to focus on my Art.
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Eimer Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
I tried, I failed.... can't make a living with my artworks, everyone seems to love but not want to pay me for creating them.
The greatest part of the day is the four hours of free time I get when I come home from my job (that I hate), to work on my own projects and my own visions... far ahead of everything I've to do on work and far away from being paid good.

But I will continue... until it works out I guess.
I mean... I got several awards and my work is published in magazines and books (I guess yours too) but that is nothing more than prestige...... It's good for my art-ego, but doesn't pay well (maybe it will some day)

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aRT2MS Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013  Hobbyist
At least you tried, and your art IS awesome BTW.
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Atlas0 Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
:clap: Applause for the man who has found the meaning of his life.
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GOTLANDSKORV Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013  Student Artist
This was very inspirational to read, rock on ^^
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DesignSpartan Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
I had a great conversation about it with my friend Marco Casalvieri. More artists - and other people - think the way you do about life, work, passion. Don't simply follow the rules, work 50 years, earn money you save and don't use, etc... I believe we're quite a lot trying to figure out a good way to live the way we want, earning enough money to live and do what we love.
Take care! Health is the highest priority anyway.
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DominicHautmann Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013
I hope you're doing well now and that your health is returning to you!

I'm going through all that too, although I'm luckily healthy.
I'm working 9 hours in an office doing I job that I don't really love and when I return home I try to become better in painting digitally. And someday -hopefully before I burn out- I will reach that goal where I can live only with that.
But I'm far from being as great as you in art, so I don't know if I ever will be good enough to live from art... It's so very tiring doing both ... 
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zathraya Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Student General Artist
This did make me think.  I'm not doing the 9-5 job at an office but I honestly don't know if I even want to go there.  I'm honestly still a student but I've been doing a lot of thinking lately too.  I think following what you love is the best thing to do.  If it doesn't work (though in your case I think you'll do well) keep trying different ways to reach it.  

Also I hope your health improves.  Good luck chasing your dream! :)
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Leathurkatt-TFTiggy Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
"Do what you love and you never work a day in your life."  Honestly, you HAVE</b to live your life for you, not for others.  They are not you, they have zero input or authority in your life, do not live for them.  To truly live, you must live for you doing what you love to do.  Only you can choose that which makes you happy, no one else can do it for you.
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SkillZombie Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Sometimes the hardest points of our lives are when we must question who we are and what drives us. The feelings of success, artistic endeavors and the like all surround our minds. But when we are faced with a mortal quandary, its at that moment when we realize where we stand. Facundo, since the time we first started talking I could easily see the levels of dedication and love that you have for what you do; even more so a drive to push yourself above and beyond what you already have. I can safely say that you're definitely on the right path in your life to make those efforts bear fruit. You've really come into what you've wanted yourself to be and with this self-dedication, you've now cemented it in stone. Good to see you continuing forward and here's to seeing more from you. :ahoy: 
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FacundoDiaz Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Those are the wisest words I have heard about this, thanks a lot for your support during all these years man, it really means a lot!
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SkillZombie Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're more than welcome man, I'm glad to see that you managed to pick yourself up from a point that most people would essentially allow themselves to just sink into. Congratulations. :)
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Kirdein Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Living the same or vary similar story, in my case it was not only that I was suffering from my job but from people around me who wanted to make my life miserable. I packed my bags left Puerto Rico and my old life and ventured to California looking for a better tomorrow. There are days when I think things are better and some that are not. The truth is that I have been slowly moving forward to felling that my life is better here. And I am proud to say that my art is basically what moves my everyday and also earns me enough to pay the essentials. One thing that I never lost sight was never losing hope of achieving ones goals :D pm me some day Ill tell you my stories in details haha.
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Nazyer Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Pobresito Facu! Terrible todo lo que te pasó ;_; ahora tengo una fuerte necesidad de abrazarte aghhhhh

Yo sé, y cabe aclarar que no hay duda en mi mente, que vas a triunfar en el arte. Sos un excelente ilustrador y artista en general, así que a darle para adelante que vas a poder ♥~ un abrazo gigante y espero que no te vuelvas a enfermar ;^; *se va a su cueva*
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FacundoDiaz Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Mari, disculpa si me corte en algún momento, si hubo alguna razón ahora la sabes :).  Te mando un abrazo gigante, cuando quieras hablamos por el face :)
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Nazyer Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist

No te preocupes, ya hace un tiempo me habías dicho de tus problemas de salud.

Vos cuidate mucho que en este momento lo más importante es tu salud! Yo ya encontraré formas de molestarte cuando estés mejor :icondragonhug:

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joshanne Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013
"3 bronchitis, flu, Pharyngitis and pneumonia were some of the diseases I had all in just about 6 months."

0_o, holy crap, I'd hate to be in that position.  But that's what happens when you work too much.  Not too long ago there was someone who died at a Bank of America because he worked for three days straight with no breaks or rests (this actually happened about a week and a half ago).

Besides, you can't just "deal with it" when something like that happens.  Honestly, dropping the art and university I think was a smart decision on your part, unfortunate that it was that you loved both of those so much.  It really is better to just simply slow down a lot and do what you need to do without practically killing yourself in the process.  At least your feeling better now and that's all that matters.
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allisonchinart Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Agreed. I'm going for my dreams too.
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lulles Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013
Wait, you say you don't want to follow the same path as everyone else for a few more bucks, but instead want to work with art. But I thought you were already working with art!
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FacundoDiaz Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
I am ;)
But it still doesn't pay the bills entirely.
So thats why I took a full time job to cover that, hoping that I could continue doing what I love.
Reality hit me hard...
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lulles Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013
Oh, so you were working with art and decided to instead work full time on something else, but in the end you didn't have time to art and it stressed you out? Yeah, I can understand that. Before I was 18 I planned on being a prosecutor, because I didn't want to work as an artist and die poor. But at some point I decided "screw it, I'm gonna work with what I love."
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FacundoDiaz Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
so how are you doing so far?, are you living from art nowadays?
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lulles Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013
I'm in art college :)
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TeaInK Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013   Digital Artist
Vos metele, irremediablemente en algun momento vas a alcanzar tu objetivo artístico si no parás. Paciencia y perseverancia. Suerte.
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laurelineparis Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Student Artist
I loved your journal, love the way you think and happy you finally open your eyes to see the world walking and let it go because u choose your own path.
That's courageous of you and I guess I'm happy to find someone who think the same as me ... 
and don't beat you down like this , because you're sharing your life with unknown person on a website who promote works ... Personnaly i'm glad you share me your thought about that, I'm touched too and I'm really happy you choosen your path.
Keep going and don't loose trust on you.
btw if you want to talk ... :)
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FacundoDiaz Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks a lot for your support :)
and of course, add me on FB if you want to talk: www.facebook.com/facudw
;)
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Shark5060 Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
well  the first thing that came to mind was "welcome to the real world, Neo".

It's as sad as it sounds, but that's life. I don't mean that in any offensive way or anything.

However, I also live my life as I like to - sure I've got a job which I don't hate, but in which I'm not totally happy in... it's a job to pay the bills - but since the job is not very hmm "challenging" I can do the work I like afterwards without having too much stress.

If you ever find a job you'll love and still can do other things you love as well without getting sick of stress you're a really lucky person - I personally only know one or two of those.

I think you can never reach happiness, but you can try to get as close as possible.
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KassidiKeys Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013   Digital Artist
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MrBlackCap Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Professional General Artist
Good luck! I'm sure you're going to do great :D
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MJWilliam Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
I could've written this. In fact, I wrote something similar: mjwilliam.deviantart.com/journ… Hopefully you can find something in it that'll make you feel better. :heart:
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sb51075 Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
If you do the work that you love and love doing it, it will never be work. But if you do work that you don't love it will always be work. But the thing is, if you do what you love and are willing to live with less "things" you will attract the people into your life that will support your passion and you will be able to follow your passion and life will progress naturally, and you will find yourself happy and healthy. And "jobs" that you would love to do will appear, almost magically. It's the strangest thing but it's true.

But it's scary, It's like walking a tightrope in a circus with no net. But the alternative, is to be unhappy and unhealthy and a shortened life.

Choose wisely.
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omp93188 Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
for once... it feels to me as if i disagree with whats written above... I'm truly impressed by your resolve and love to art, but, i think in a long-term way, and i think u should think very hard on simply planning your next exact step... take your time thinking about what will happen after you run out of money? what will happen if u find out your health still gets worse? i don't know how long or hard you thought about this, but of my experience... dealing with it really works... the only thing u need is TIME... time to think, time to relax, time to sleep, time to dream, time for planning your future in a better way... i hardly think that just living with what u love without the support of a job, for the very basics of plain food, water, a roof on-top of your head. maybe the job u had was too stressful and too much uncomfortable for you... have yourself time with friends and family... move back in time and see ALL your other possibilitys, follow the path you truly think from your head and heart is right for you! i really hope i will be of some help and that which ever path you will choose will make you happy! BUT... the question is.... for how long?
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FacundoDiaz Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
As long as it has to be, If my choice happens to be a mistake, then let it be, but I wont spend my life wondering how would I be If I worked from what I love. Making the wrong choice wont leave you on the street, you can always make new choices until you find what you need. That's what people are scared of, because doing what you want...is definitely scary.
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Tybertimus Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Don't worry Keepwalking! Just take what you love and find ways to make a living doing it! It doesn't have to be a black-and-white decision of "do something you hate for a living or do something you love and not be able to support yourself."

If what you love is art, make art, and target companies that will pay you to do what you love! It is definitely possible, especially with your dedication. Life will always have a little stress, but if you used to have so much stress that it was making you SICK...heaven's sakes, that's no way to live! I'm cheering for you.
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illusivereality Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013
I agree with omp93188. Having a dream is important but being wise about how you live is also very important. They aren't mutually incompatible. Something as simple as getting your sleep patterns right could solve your problem. I know that's a pretty stupid point to make, but it's an example of something small that drastically affects your health.

Fight for your dream, just be wise about it.
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omp93188 Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
perhaps... but i'm sure there are always hundreds of other thing to worry about... my family's current financial state is not so good... i have a little sister at the age of 5... now as a brother i don't give a crap about how much i will starve as long as she gets food, you know? i'm not important, my family a friends are those who matter.. i have a dream... to succeed in this world and be wealth enough to hold a family... to have a family is my dream! but i wont bring children to the world if im going to give them misery and hunger as they grow up... thats how far i think for my future... my only worries are my choices, i truly bless u as someone who has a straight goal in front of him...ofc there are mysterys along the way but thats what makes it fun and wild!  it is important to keep ur health and be interested in what u do! but, sometimes sacrifices HAVE to be made... looking in front of pain is scary to most ppl, u need a strong heart and mind to be able to go out there! i most agree with you about the choices... wondering wont do... we all have to go and find out for our selves! all im saying is that we must think for what we do on the right times, in the right places...every choice is a path worth taking... i very hope that the path you took is most healthy and good for you and your surroundings! :)
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R3V4N Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist

That was one of the best and most honest journals I've read ever.

And I'm more than happy that you decided to do not what will give you money and other material stuff, but rather what you love and what's close to your heart.

It takes a lot of courage to stand against trends these days and just do what your heart tells you to.

I'm really happy for you, and I wish you much luck with accomplishing your life!

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FacundoDiaz Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks a lot man :)
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R3V4N Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Keep that head up!
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Spellsword95 Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Student Digital Artist
You have my full support! You do what everyone should have done long time ago, no regrets, no procrastinations, just follow your inner voice. Rock on, man! Seize the day!
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