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August 29, 2013


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Hello guys, long time since I updated my deviant, from works to news and journals.

Now going directly to the point of this journal in matter, I am going to try to clarify some of the reasons for the above recently mentioned and I am going to be as honest as possible. During the last 2 or 3 years I have been growing economically, and raising positions in big companies as a front end developer and web designer, and had to travel long distances to reach the office in a very uncomfortable crowded subway which left me with very little time for studying and painting. At the begging it felt great, it was good, I was ok with it, but eventually things turned up to be like anything I have ever expected. I started to feel more and more sick every month; 3 bronchitis, flu, Pharyngitis and pneumonia were some of the diseases I had all in just about 6 months.
Recently I assumed a great position in my new company and the situation went from bad to worse, as if my body was actually begging me to stop doing something, I started to faint and feel sick reaching the point of having a stroke risk which implied that I may die If I continue like this. At this point I had to drop art and university(which was everything I loved in this life) and just concentrate on my job, simply because my mind was burned out from all the things I was doing. I was hospitalized several times, run through several tests, and they found nothing, anything at all. Stress was their explanation. Just stress...

So...I started to question my life in many aspects like money, happiness, love, work, art... and figured out after many days of thinking that this situation was not what I wanted. I started to ask many people how they face these situations, or if they even experienced them at all. Well... as a result of my kind of desperate survey for intelligent answers, every single person I talked to about this said: "yes...but you just have to deal with it"

It was the most depressing thing I have ever heard, people live their lives hating their jobs, feeling sick because of it, loosing target on their dreams and achievements in life (if they actually have some) at the cost of buying things things they don't really need, to impress people they don't really know, to feel happy about it. But every one knows money doesn't buy happiness, it sure gives the illusion, but it really doesn't.

So why bothering doing all this...

There were friends that supported me and endless messages from a couple of popular videos like this one from Alan Watts:…
that told me to "just do what you want", and this was kind of new to me. It was strange. It was scary. Aren't we supposed to all do the same thing?, aren't we supposed to go to an office stare at our screen for 9 hours straight and return back home to sleep and do the same the day after?, Wasn't this what everyone teach us in school?, that we have to live like that for the rest of our lives...?

Well, I fortunately made my choice, and I choose to live doing what I love to doing. Which is art.
And I refuse to follow the same path everyone is following just to get a couple more bucks on their pockets.
I don't know how much time I could live from art, but its worth trying, it definitely is.

I know I should keep this journal with professionalism and giving you super awesome news, but I guessed you guys should know this, that I'm just a human being like everyone else. Perhaps some of you experienced or are going through the same situation, and you find some answers on this journal. I will love to hear your story if so...

Thank you for reading

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DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I got to your profile seeing your art, and came across this journal of yours.
I have to say; I respected you for the amazing art you made already. But what I even came to respect more is your attitude. That even despite the hard times you've been through, you came here to share this with people. That you make choices in life because what you love, and not because the path others set for you.

I've been through a similar situation a few years back. I was also chasing a career in the web industry and fell terribly ill to the point even the doctors gave up on me, only to get to the conclusion that there's more in life than just money. Nowadays I still work in the web industry (I've always liked the web to start with) but I'm not working 60+ hours a week anymore, as my body just couldn't handle the pressure. And despite many people telling me that I wasted my chances for a great career, I'm more happy with my life now than I was back then. My grandma used to say that when one door closes in life, another one opens, and I think that's kinda true. That even despite that some things don't work out in life, that there are plenty of other possibility's, and that you should never be satisfied being deeply unhappy because you're too afraid to chase your dreams.
FacundoDiaz Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for your comment it kinda warmed my heart a little bit :glomp:.
Its great to know that there are people like you who understant these kind of situations and that they are also trying to pursue their dreams in life.

Oh and I love your pencil works so I am watching you now :P
BlackDonner Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I hope you feel better, man. I've been in your position. It resulted in a skyrocketing blood pressure, skin leisures and panic attacks. Never more!!!
juanpmassa Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2013  Professional General Artist
Qué haces tanto tiempo? recién renové la cuenta de DA después de bastante de no actualizar y eso (las razones por las que cambie la cuenta en otro momento te la digo). Te agrego en el watch y me entero de esto, espero que te encuentres mejor de salud.

A mi me paso algo parecido, pero nunca llegue a este extremo de stress. Me tiré a la pileta justo a tiempo, fui por lo que quería en realidad y tuve la suerte que no me juzgaron por eso (viste que a veces a la familia de uno le cuesta entender y eso a uno le jode) hoy por hoy no me va mal como historietista.

Hiciste bien, a veces cuesta al principio pero te vas a sentir bien con vos mismo... Abrazo :D
EvaxisAwesome Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2013
 wat program does he use to make these?
Brehnman Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Well, dealing with it is what most of us do. If u have a possibility not having to deal with it, consider yourself privileged. ;)
RoboticGolem Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I know I'm a bit late to the party (I'm not on much) but...

You have to do what you enjoy.  That's the end of it.  If your lucky, you love that kind of life where you just stare at a screen for 9-10 hours a day.  I currently pull two positions at my job (which I enjoy because I've got somethings that are completely different from day to day, no monotony).  However, issues have arisen where I dont want to be there anymore.  I've started my own business doing what I love.  I'm really quite good at it.  I'm stuck under a failing housing market, so I've got no where to go.  I'm hoping that I'll slowly be able to ween off of my day job to just my own business and support my life as it is.  I dont need or want a ton of money.  I picked up a major client via word of mouth a couple of months ago.  Even though the requirement and workload are a little high.  I love it.  It's what I enjoy doing.  It reminded me more than anything why I dont care for the job I have now.

Remember, if you work yourself to death, what else is there?
8-0-8 Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2013
Good luck in your pursuit; perhaps someday you may be able to make a living solely off of what you love.
A lot of life is about just going through the motions and dealing with it, as others have told you. It is depressing, in a way - a bit strange too, that so many accept it with face value.
Heard from someone that there's a life of meaning and a life of happiness, but you can't have both. However, you certainly *can* have a life without either.
I'm glad you've made a good choice ^_^
Avolendi Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist

Money is a means to an end and I think that's often forgotten.


Beyond the basic needs, it's more important that you focus on enjoying your life. Else you spend all your time working towards something you want, rather than actually spending your time doing what you like. If you can find what you like to do in life, it's more important you try to make that work rather than to do what pays well and you don't like. And if you can't do what you like or can't earn enough money with it, it's at least worth it to try and find something that allows you to keep at it or focus on it further down the road.


This is something I realized for myself a while ago as well and I'm now working to finish a study so I can hopefully earn a living doing what I like.


Good luck in pursuing your goals :)

Milvolarsum Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
That´s how you do it man :D
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