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Hello guys, long time since I updated my deviant, from works to news and journals.
Now going directly to the point of this journal in matter, I am going to try to clarify some of the reasons for the above recently mentioned and I am going to be as honest as possible. During the last 2 or 3 years I have been growing economically, and raising positions in big companies as a front end developer and web designer, and had to travel long distances to reach the office in a very uncomfortable crowded subway which left me with very little time for studying and painting. At the begging it felt great, it was good, I was ok with it, but eventually things turned up to be like anything I have ever expected. I started to feel more and more sick every month; 3 bronchitis, flu, Pharyngitis and pneumonia were some of the diseases I had all in just about 6 months.
Recently I assumed a great position in my new company and the situation went from bad to worse, as if my body was actually begging me to stop doing something, I started to faint and feel sick reaching the point of having a stroke risk which implied that I may die If I continue like this. At this point I had to drop art and university(which was everything I loved in this life) and just concentrate on my job, simply because my mind was burned out from all the things I was doing. I was hospitalized several times, run through several tests, and they found nothing, anything at all. Stress was their explanation. Just stress...
So...I started to question my life in many aspects like money, happiness, love, work, art... and figured out after many days of thinking that this situation was not what I wanted. I started to ask many people how they face these situations, or if they even experienced them at all. Well... as a result of my kind of desperate survey for intelligent answers, every single person I talked to about this said: "yes...but you just have to deal with it"
It was the most depressing thing I have ever heard, people live their lives hating their jobs, feeling sick because of it, loosing target on their dreams and achievements in life (if they actually have some) at the cost of buying things things they don't really need, to impress people they don't really know, to feel happy about it. But every one knows money doesn't buy happiness, it sure gives the illusion, but it really doesn't.
So why bothering doing all this...
There were friends that supported me and endless messages from a couple of popular videos like this one from Alan Watts: www.youtube.com/watch?v=rApGnn…
that told me to "just do what you want", and this was kind of new to me. It was strange. It was scary. Aren't we supposed to all do the same thing?, aren't we supposed to go to an office stare at our screen for 9 hours straight and return back home to sleep and do the same the day after?, Wasn't this what everyone teach us in school?, that we have to live like that for the rest of our lives...?
Well, I fortunately made my choice, and I choose to live doing what I love to doing. Which is art.
And I refuse to follow the same path everyone is following just to get a couple more bucks on their pockets.
I don't know how much time I could live from art, but its worth trying, it definitely is.
I know I should keep this journal with professionalism and giving you super awesome news, but I guessed you guys should know this, that I'm just a human being like everyone else. Perhaps some of you experienced or are going through the same situation, and you find some answers on this journal. I will love to hear your story if so...
Thank you for reading
Now going directly to the point of this journal in matter, I am going to try to clarify some of the reasons for the above recently mentioned and I am going to be as honest as possible. During the last 2 or 3 years I have been growing economically, and raising positions in big companies as a front end developer and web designer, and had to travel long distances to reach the office in a very uncomfortable crowded subway which left me with very little time for studying and painting. At the begging it felt great, it was good, I was ok with it, but eventually things turned up to be like anything I have ever expected. I started to feel more and more sick every month; 3 bronchitis, flu, Pharyngitis and pneumonia were some of the diseases I had all in just about 6 months.
Recently I assumed a great position in my new company and the situation went from bad to worse, as if my body was actually begging me to stop doing something, I started to faint and feel sick reaching the point of having a stroke risk which implied that I may die If I continue like this. At this point I had to drop art and university(which was everything I loved in this life) and just concentrate on my job, simply because my mind was burned out from all the things I was doing. I was hospitalized several times, run through several tests, and they found nothing, anything at all. Stress was their explanation. Just stress...
So...I started to question my life in many aspects like money, happiness, love, work, art... and figured out after many days of thinking that this situation was not what I wanted. I started to ask many people how they face these situations, or if they even experienced them at all. Well... as a result of my kind of desperate survey for intelligent answers, every single person I talked to about this said: "yes...but you just have to deal with it"
It was the most depressing thing I have ever heard, people live their lives hating their jobs, feeling sick because of it, loosing target on their dreams and achievements in life (if they actually have some) at the cost of buying things things they don't really need, to impress people they don't really know, to feel happy about it. But every one knows money doesn't buy happiness, it sure gives the illusion, but it really doesn't.
So why bothering doing all this...
There were friends that supported me and endless messages from a couple of popular videos like this one from Alan Watts: www.youtube.com/watch?v=rApGnn…
that told me to "just do what you want", and this was kind of new to me. It was strange. It was scary. Aren't we supposed to all do the same thing?, aren't we supposed to go to an office stare at our screen for 9 hours straight and return back home to sleep and do the same the day after?, Wasn't this what everyone teach us in school?, that we have to live like that for the rest of our lives...?
Well, I fortunately made my choice, and I choose to live doing what I love to doing. Which is art.
And I refuse to follow the same path everyone is following just to get a couple more bucks on their pockets.
I don't know how much time I could live from art, but its worth trying, it definitely is.
I know I should keep this journal with professionalism and giving you super awesome news, but I guessed you guys should know this, that I'm just a human being like everyone else. Perhaps some of you experienced or are going through the same situation, and you find some answers on this journal. I will love to hear your story if so...
Thank you for reading
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Moving to Germany
A once in a lifetime opportunity has arrived. Me and my wife will be both moving to Germany. This is the reason I've been absent during the last couple of months. I've been offered a position as a UX/UI designer in a company and I'll be leaving not only my home country (and family) but also 10 years of software development. This is a huge change for me, because not only I'll be changing my profession, but also country, language, and even climate. I can not describe how happy I am, and how lucky I feel, but I also wont deny that I am quite nervous about fitting in this new culture. Learning the language and understanding how things work there has been top priority for me, as I do wish to become part of the community and integrate their culture. I hope to start a new life there and just maybe heal myself from the traumas of the past, allowing me to spend more time doing what I love, illustrating. I wish to thank my followers and specially my patrons who support me through all this
My patreon
https://www.patreon.com/keepwalking For those who would like to support more upcoming illustrations you can now tip whatever you want on my patreon. Whith this method I plan to get some moral boost and spend more time doing artworks. You will also be able to suggest new ideas and engage in the whole creation process if you like. Depending on how much engagement I have I may upload more content in the future.
Turning the page
Following up from my previous journal where I explained the reasons for being so disconected lately. I am now slowly returning to draw and paint more and more. I hope seeing you around on my next works. Your words and kindness have been super important to me. and I will always be gratefull to those who sent them. Thank you all. and thanks specially to RubyKeane, I love you.
Life and death of an artist
Hello everyone,
Hope you are doing well. I thought I may express some words with you
During the last years of my life I experienced a roller coaster of events that changed my life for ever, some of them good, but most of them bad. The last ones have to to do with extreme anxiety peaks, similar to epillepsy episodes, but with a different type of trigger in my mind, making me unable to walk, speak, or even stand up, causing vomiting, nausea and respiratory insufficiency (eventually making me faint), The impact of such events were so hard on me that they deteriorated my health to the point of being hevily medicated for indefinite time. However
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I got to your profile seeing your art, and came across this journal of yours.
I have to say; I respected you for the amazing art you made already. But what I even came to respect more is your attitude. That even despite the hard times you've been through, you came here to share this with people. That you make choices in life because what you love, and not because the path others set for you.
I've been through a similar situation a few years back. I was also chasing a career in the web industry and fell terribly ill to the point even the doctors gave up on me, only to get to the conclusion that there's more in life than just money. Nowadays I still work in the web industry (I've always liked the web to start with) but I'm not working 60+ hours a week anymore, as my body just couldn't handle the pressure. And despite many people telling me that I wasted my chances for a great career, I'm more happy with my life now than I was back then. My grandma used to say that when one door closes in life, another one opens, and I think that's kinda true. That even despite that some things don't work out in life, that there are plenty of other possibility's, and that you should never be satisfied being deeply unhappy because you're too afraid to chase your dreams.
I have to say; I respected you for the amazing art you made already. But what I even came to respect more is your attitude. That even despite the hard times you've been through, you came here to share this with people. That you make choices in life because what you love, and not because the path others set for you.
I've been through a similar situation a few years back. I was also chasing a career in the web industry and fell terribly ill to the point even the doctors gave up on me, only to get to the conclusion that there's more in life than just money. Nowadays I still work in the web industry (I've always liked the web to start with) but I'm not working 60+ hours a week anymore, as my body just couldn't handle the pressure. And despite many people telling me that I wasted my chances for a great career, I'm more happy with my life now than I was back then. My grandma used to say that when one door closes in life, another one opens, and I think that's kinda true. That even despite that some things don't work out in life, that there are plenty of other possibility's, and that you should never be satisfied being deeply unhappy because you're too afraid to chase your dreams.